But something was still off.
I realized I had fallen prey to the illusion that life was all about my personal successes and that somehow if I was successful, I’d be “happy.” I followed the predictable path of working hard, doing what I thought was expected of me, got married and had two beautiful children.
Life has a funny way of intervening and letting you know there’s a different path you might want to take, right?
For me, it was the birth of my second child. I literally felt as though I got hit over the head with one of my grandmother’s cast iron skillets when we found out he was born with a life shortening and incurable chronic illness.
It literally stopped me in my tracks.
Wait a minute! This wasn’t the life I had envisioned! Chronically stressed out, living from my “to do list,” constantly worrying about the future for my children, always depleted and putting myself last.
I knew there had to be more to life.
But what? And even if I knew the answer to the what, how would I go about taking the actions necessary to fulfill whatever that “what” was?
I wanted to live a life that lit me up in every way instead of depleted and exhausted me. I wanted to stop spinning my wheels and letting my life live me. I wanted to wake up excited for the day ahead knowing I was using my gifts and talents not just to serve my family, but to serve some greater purpose. I wanted to live a life of passion, meaning and purpose, excited for the day ahead.
This yearning for an awakened life is what drove me onto my own personal spiritual path.
I started practicing meditation and mindfulness and, for over a decade, sought out to train and practice with some of the most recognized spiritual and psychotherapy teachers in the world. I earned my certification to teach meditation from the Chopra Center and in contemplative psychotherapy from Nalanda.
Piece by piece, I began to reconnect to my true self; to that person who felt invigorated and inspired to live a life of meaning and purpose. In walking my own spiritual path, doing the “heavy lifting” so to speak, I discovered how to access the true freedom, passion and purpose that I hadn’t before realized is available and accessible to us all.
I had literally embarked on a lifelong journey that reignited my life. I started to understand that transforming my life had nothing to do with changing the circumstances in it. Contrary to what I had previously thought, I wasn’t in control of any of that.
My son taught me that.
I had to look deeply and deconstruct my limiting beliefs and habitual patterns so I could recognize that everything I really need to be happy is already there. Right there all along. Literally, my false notions of reality were preventing me from realizing that I already have everything that’s necessary to live an awakened life!
And now, it’s my mission to share that same pathway with you and walk beside you, hold your hand and support you as you traverse it.